Life as a mom of 2!

Some days I sit and think, "am I really their mom?" Because I still cannot get over how blessed I am to be their mom. My 2 boys are my world. They each have their own personalities and qualities that I love.

Zeke is 9, and my gentle giant. He is the most loving and affectionate person and completely reminds me so much of his dad. They are such emotional creatures, and they absolutely love so freely ♥ And they love being spontaneous. (And I cannot deal with this). Zeke is very understanding and really a calm soul. 

Zion, 18 months old, is a feisty little human. And he lets absolutely nothing gets past him. He is an adventurous soul, and calm is not in his vocabulary. He is not the cuddly type of child, he will squirm his way out of your arms to avoid hugs and kisses. He will give you a kiss, but will get irritated if you ask for too many kisses, reminds me of me... Ooooopsy!

I must say having to deal with 2 different personalities has been a struggle, at times. Because here you have 1 child that wants to watch TV in peace and quiet and then comes the storm. The child that wants to play and make a noise, who doesn't care to watch TV. Now Mom need to step in, or out. Because, let's be honest, we all desire some bits of peace and quite some days. So I have to take Zion out of the room and go out and play with him because he really does not understand that he needs to sit still. Which is understandable, he is only 18 months old, and a true little explorer!

So here we are... 2 totally different kids, one home. But we are learning how to deal with both personalities so not to step on toes, and treat both fairly. Sometimes its not easy because you simply cannot please 2 people at the same time. Juggling life, love and everything in between is damn hard! But we just troop on... And learn from our mistakes. 

My angel child, Zeke, seems to require a lot more attention in the sense that he wants some alone time with mom and/or dad. And I think we often get so busy that we overlook this. And for 2019, and coming years, I am making a point to at least take him out once a month. Even if we just go to the mall alone, without Master Mischievous. Zeke really loves going to the movies, and I aim to take him for a movie at least once every 2 month... This may sometimes be unobtainable, but we aim  to do this! So we will see how it goes. 

I must add, about Zeke, that he delivered the MOST AMAZING school report. Any mother would be absolutely proud, even though he was not as happy with it. He brought home ALL 7's. The highest marks you can obtain, and that is amazing. During 2018 he struggled a lot with Afrikaans, second language but really exceeded all expectations. And we are immensely proud of him for doing his utmost in his school work. And we pray that he will always do his best in school and elsewhere. I had a casual chat with him, and said "Boy I am so proud of you, and love you so much. Please do me one thing, ALWAYS BE KIND! You do not know what other kids are going through or what their home situation is like, but you have the ability to make a difference. Always be kind." And he looked at me, and said "Yes mom, I will be kind to everyone."

So we now get to Master Zion. What a little guy. He is truly what I needed when I didn't know I needed it. Not that Zeke wasn't or isn't needed. Zion is just the type of child that will make you want to love life, and be adventurous. And try new things. You have to admire his tenacity and pure endurance. He really does NOT GIVE UP. He has the ability to melt hearts, and he has his own way of things. He also make you look at life/things in a complete different way. And I love that about him. Like I said previously, he is not your typical cuddly toddler, even though he looks so cuddly. So for now we sit and enjoy (who am I kidding??) his antics! He makes us run wild because he just doesn't sit still. 

Life as a mom is both exciting and scary. I always feel like I am doing too little for my kids, spend too little time with them.. The last few days I just say Fuckit! The house work can wait then I sit with them. We build blocks. We play and we eat, lots LOL. Look, the boys can eat. And they like the snax, and so does MOM :) 

Happy 18 month baby boy ♥

Today my baby is 18 months old. What??? Where the heck did the time go?? Like he was born just the other day, or not! I simply cannot believe how fast time flies by....

Here is a look at his first 6 months in some pics :) 

Like how damn cute is he man????? He was just a baby the other day?? 

And this was just before he turned 1. He was not impressed with this whole cake smash business, yet on this photo it looks like he is actually enjoying himself.

These were taken a few days ago. Just to show you how he looks now. He is a feisty little man! And he has this never give up attitude. Like if he cant do something, he will try until he gets it right. He doesn't let anyone or anyone show him that he cant do it. His attitude is I can and I will... Sometimes this combo is not a good thing!!

Some days it is HARD being a mom. I some days feel like I have no control, or I dont actually know what I am doing... Like wtf just happened??? And then I have days where I ace everything and I am actually WINNING!!!! But sometimes that winning feeling does not last very long.... And then I have my days where I sit and rationalise with myself and say you got this girl... Some things are outside of your control, but you doing the absolute best for those kids. And be glad they still alive LOL!

But all in all, I have no idea what the actual point was here.. Oh yes, sorry. It was about Zion and his 18 months milestone! Congrats on making it thus far, alive, LOL. We love you Booboo ♥